Oh These Teen Years

Well, we are still early in the teen years. Between these hormones and all these medical things, how am I gonna survive this...... or her! I know this has played a huge part on my mental health. It's been making me miss things I would have usually caught.

We hear it from everywhere how we have to take care of ourselves first in order to help others. Yet sometimes our brains and bodies forget that! I know I have told many to do this. How did I not remember it for myself this time?

It's been months and months of things happening. Seeing my girl decline and going to doctor visit after doctor visit to find out nothing but 'we know there's a problem but we don't know what it is'. It's exhausting and has played more of a major role on our mental health then I was realizing. I missed out on seeing my own decline as well as my girls.

Now that I see it, what do we do? Well, I don't know. Ok, I do know but I'm just so mentally exhausted that I don't want to go anywhere or do anything. My happiness and positivity that I usually have is taking a backseat to this feeling of I don't care. I know I do care, I just don't want to care. Not right now.

In the past, I know when I feel this way I need to see the doctor. I have been diagnosed with Depression and this chemical unbalance in my brain is so frustrating! I know I can deal with all this stuff but I guess right now, I need help. I'm not afraid to ask for help. It's just that feeling of not wanting to do anything that keeps me from making that call.

Thank goodness I have a great support system. Now that I acknowledge the issue, my husband is helping me to get out of bed during the day. Help me to laugh. Helps me to be apart of our family and makes sure I don't lock myself away for too long. He knows I need to be on my own as well because the world is too overwhelming for my brain right now. He does check in on me and he checks in on our girl too.

We took our girl to the doctor to make Meds adjustments and she has been doing better. My appointment is soon. I will start feeling better as well.

What a crazy world! Trying to keep my cool when her impulse control issues are horrible. Between it being an actual diagnosis and her teenage hormones running wild, will we make it through these years?